“Be Kind. For everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle.” ~Socrates
I know I’m driven and ambitious, but I battle “stuff” everyday just like you do. I refuse to let my “stuff” defeat me. Even when it’s kicking the crap out of me on a regular basis.
What am I struggling through every week? I am currently struggling through 1-2 debilitating migraines per week. If you get migraines you just cringed a little when I said that.
If you don’t get migraines let me clue you in on what happens, because people who don’t get migraines are so CUTE when they say well maybe you just need some caffeine. So cute…
First, I get an aura (an aura is a visual disturbance brought on by migraine). It starts out as a tiny speck in my field of vision and then slowly expands outward until I can’t see anything. My field of vision is eventually covered by zig zagging lines.
Next I get really nauseous and cold at the same time. I need to go find a dark place to sit and wait for my vision to return.
Once my vision returns cue pounding headache, nausea, and extreme fatigue. If the Tylenol I took is working by this point I’m still nauseous but I can fight down throwing up. The headache is still there although its about 50% of what it would be. A migraine at 50% instead of 100% intensity still makes me want to crawl into a dark hole and never come out.
I also for about 2 hours after getting a migraine can’t read words on a page or computer screen and I struggle to put sentences together.
For a day afterward I am in a migraine fog where concentrating is difficult and I am EXHAUSTED.
I don’t talk about my migraines much. I usually just function through them which is an exhausting feat in and of itself. Have you ever been in a meeting losing your vision and feeling like anxiety is about to eat you alive? I have, on multiple occasions and its not fun.
Why don’t I talk about it? Because people who don’t get migraines don’t care. They think you’re pretending, that its weak to go home because you have a “headache.” I will say that my current boss does care, but I get them too much to go home every-time I get one.
If I went home every time I got a migraine I’d miss 1-2 days of work a week, and something tells me missing 1-2 days a week of work does not guarantee job security.
I’ve tried taking prescription drugs, but those knock me out and make me depressed at the same time. NOPE.
I took magnesium for a while and that helped but eventually it stopped working.
I’ve narrowed down the things that 100% absolutely trigger me and I work to stay away from those foods: Chinese, microwave popcorn, and candy.
Sometimes when I think about how long I have struggled with these it makes me discouraged. Then I remember I have two choices. I can lay down in a puddle of self pity and quit, or I can continue to fight and push forward refusing to let this defeat me. Those are my only choices and since Daddy didn’t raise no quitter I will keep fighting.
Do you suffer from migraines? What have you found that helps reduce the frequency or intensity of your migraines?